I once thought I had a beautiful future life planed and dreamed for me, as everybody else has:
A good job, marriage, a big family, a divine physical appearance, a fast car, parties, lots of money, being famous... 

     How often do I dream and work toward meeting objectives in order to have one or more of these things achieved in my future?

"Get a job. Go to work. Get married. Have children. Follow fashion. Act Normal. Walk on the pavement. Watch TV. Obey the law. Save for your old age. Now repeat after me: I AM FREE"

    But who assures me that these are the things that will make me feel fulfilled and "happy"? Are my dreams and ambitions really worthy of being called mine?

Unknowingly, my whole life, concepts of beauty, happiness, freedom, were all implanted at some point. Society, government, or whatever is controlling us, with tools such as media, or somewhere along the way... I lost myself!

     And only a couple years ago I realized how much of "me" I really am (Or rather am not), and how little I can be within the limits are imposed.

FREEDOM ? Will I ever be able to call it mine?
Are my dreams, desires, likes and hates really mine or were they the ones implanted by others?

Now I see how brainwashed I've been... Still am... But I'll stop it!

Whatever it takes, even detachment seems like a good option in some sort, into achieving this kind of power, because only then I am free to evolve myself... Who knows, will I attain peace? freedom? Will I then be able to say that  this life as really mine?

      The problem with society is that in everyday life, people feel more inclined to throw up the middle finger than they do the peace sign, they would rather glare at you as an act of intimidation than smile at you as a gesture of love and they are more likely to tell you to fuck off than to have a nice day.. this is disgusting, horrible and really upsetting and it shouldn't be this way...

In my own way I try to change this...

Is my effort worth it? I don't care...

But a better world with less judgement and hate, and more peace and love is totally worth it.

"The world is full of nice people, if you can't find one, 

be one"

     Some days ago, after having published some stuff on a social network, someone commented one of my posts, It was a young man who described himself as a servant of God, and a God fearing person.

     And so we started talking, because I'm always interested into making new friends, 
Until that in the middle of the conversation he asked me "I hope you are a christian?" which I replied "nop, you "hope" wrong".

     I thought "ohh -.- not another one of those who can't respect other's beliefs." (trying hard not to tag Christians only)

       After talking for a little about myself and trying to explain my beliefs to him, and a little surprised with his interest about it, continuing to ask me more questions about it, which I answered gladly.

      Until he tells me that "only Christianity is real", accusing my beliefs, and stating that what does not have a valuable source as Christianity does, is not real, and then he just started bragging about his religion. 

        I felt deeply offended and judged for seeing part of me defamed like that. There's no way I would let that bring me down, If I felt inferior to him for just being different, he would have won. I finished the conversation right then, asking respect, because right when he started talking about that subject I told him that what I am, above all, is someone who sees individuality as a virtue and other's differences with respect.

      WHAT I LEARNED: Well, something is certain, he wasn't respecting who I am, my personality and differences,  and he was not "loving his neighbor as himself". His loss, lost what could have been a good friendship.

     As for me, I still believe that there would be no joy in life if we were all alike, and that's why I celebrate each new person in my life.

And being different only makes someone more beautiful and interesting!